一位原住民男同志的生活經驗優勢初探

A native gay’s life experience-a pilot study

關於同志議題的研究近年來有遽增的趨勢，這似乎暗示了不同研究領域對於弱勢族群的關切與注意，然而同志不是單純性向身分而已，還有不同的文化背景，包括種族、信仰等因素摻雜，而對於國內原住民同志的相關議題似乎較少受到關注，當同志加上種族的背景變項，所面臨的生命經驗會有何差異？本研究從一位自認為排灣族原住民男同志阿基的故事敘述中去發掘、了解他的生命經驗，也希望增加本國對於種族背景的同志族群與文化影響的些微了解。本研究以半結構式深度訪談與觀察為主要資料蒐集方式，研究結果發現：阿基在原住民與同志雙重污名化底下，仍可以成功認同自我，其優勢是好成績（也表示有能力）、主動積極的個性、對自己真誠的堅持、用心經營人脈，他也有很強的自我強度與幽默感，這些特質協助他一路走來可以堅持真實的自我，也面對不同的挑戰；他的同志認同過程是：發現不同、確認、與現身。

The increasing research on sexual orientation seems to suggest different fields pay attention and concerns to minorities in Taiwan. However， gayness is not only about sexual orientation， it combines with other components such as culture， race， and beliefs etc.， thus makes it more complex. This study was an attempt to explore how a native gay man viewed his gay identity and his strengths and challenges. A semi-structured interview was used for data collection as well as informal chatting and observation before the research was conducted. The results showed that A-Chi (the participant)， though under the double pressure of Native and gay， encountered challenges successfully with his academic excellence， positive attitude toward life， authenticity and perseverance， interpersonal intelligence， as well as strong ego strength and sense of humor. His gay identity process has been through feeling differences， identifying， and disclosing and coming-out.