出走與歸來─小說家王定國散文集《探路》中的自我探索

Exodus and Return–Self-Exploration in Novelist Wang Dingguo’s Essay Collection Exploring the Road

作家可以，而且也應當是個多面手，這一觀點已為人們所普遍認同。從文體創作角度來觀察當代文壇，有些作家為雙重或多重跨域書寫。散文雖然在小說家王定國創作中的分量很少，且在作家復筆後期表現較少，但卻是最早開始經營的文體。回顧王定國散文的創作歷程，其先後出版了《細雨菊花天》、《隔水問相思》，乃至後來的商戰書寫《企業家，沒有家：一個台灣商人的愛與恨》、政治觀察《憂國：台灣巨變一百天》，直到2017年的《探路》探勘自己的生命足跡，呈現他如何從文學的世界裡「離場」與「歸來」的追尋歷程。可見，小說家的散文正以它的敞亮內心和時代關懷提醒著我們不要輕忽。我們可以發現，「尋找」是王定國創作的重要主題。本文先回顧王定國各個階段的散文，再立足於近作《探路》，探討其孤獨意識在作品中的體現，進而瞭解王定國「尋找」的心路歷程。本文視作家為一位尋找者，並以其在追尋理想人生道路上跌宕起伏的過程為主軸，以其由迷惘到歸來的過程為輔線，探討他是如何一步步完成兩重身分的超越與整合，並對「尋找自我」這一命題進行反思。相信這樣的挖掘，對我們瞭解作家的創作動機與生命意識有相當重要的價值。

It is widely recognized that writers can and should be versatile. Observing the contemporary literary scene from the perspective of genre creation, some writers have double or multiple crossdomain writing. Although the prose has a very small part in novelist Wang Dingguo’s creation, and at the same time has less performance in the writer’s later period of resumption of writing, it is the earliest genre that he started to operate. Looking back at Wang Dingguo’s prose writing history, he has published The Day of the Chrysanthemums in the Fine Rain, Asking for Love Across the Water, and later on, his book on business and war, Entrepreneur, No Home: The Love and Hate of a Taiwanese Businessman, and his political observation Worrying About the Nation: A Hundred Days of Huge Changes in Taiwan, and then, in 2017, his book Exploring the Paths to explore his own life’s footsteps, which shows how he has been on a journey of “leaving the scene” and “coming back” from the world of literature. It can be seen that the novelist’s prose, with its open heart and contemporary concern, cannot be ignored. We can find that “searching” is an important theme in Wang Dingguo’s creation. This article first reviews Wang Dingguo’s prose at various stages, and then, based on his recent work Pathfinding, explores the realization of his sense of solitude in his works, so as to further understand Wang Dingguo’s journey of “searching”. In this paper, we see the writer as a searcher, and use his ups and downs in the pursuit of his ideal life as the main line, and the process of his return from confusion as the supplementary line, to explore how he accomplished the transcendence and integration of his two identities step by step, and to reflect on the proposition of “searching for oneself”. It is believed that this kind of excavation is of great value to our understanding of the writer’s motivation and consciousness of life.