台灣女同志的悲傷剝奪經驗

The Experience of Disenfranchised Grief of Lesbians in Taiwan

本研究主要目的在探討台灣女同志遭受污名化之下，面臨伴侶死亡之重大失落事件時，需擔心女同志身份被迫現身，而無法像一般異性戀伴侶自在的表現悲傷，而產生悲傷權利被剝奪的現象。本研究使用質性研究之敘事研究取向作為研究方法，以一位50歲，經歷過伴侶死亡之台灣女同志為對象，進行三次半結構式深入訪談，將所蒐集之資料整理為生命故事以及生命主題。本研究發現如下：台灣女同志伴侶死亡前後醫療法律的困境為醫療過程無合法地位以及台灣醫療法規無法及於女同志伴侶；女同志伴侶死亡後呈現三種悲傷剝奪現象如失落不被認可與支持的悲傷剝奪、非重要關係對象的悲傷剝奪以及無法因應悲傷的哀悼剝奪。同時，也發現台灣女同志伴侶死亡後女同志伴侶在喪葬儀式位置被忽略以及女同志伴侶文化療癒機會被剝奪。

This study investigates the disenfranchised grief lesbians in Taiwan go through when they face the death of their partners. Lesbians usually can't express their grief like heterosexual partners do as they are worried that their sexual orientation might be revealed if they express their grief openly. As a result, they experience disenfranchised grief in dealing with the loss of their partners. This research adopts the narrative approach in qualitative research methods. The subject of the research is a 50-year-old Taiwanese lesbian who experienced the death of her partner. Three semi-structured in-depth interviews were conducted and the collected data was organized into life stories and life themes. This research has the following findings: The medical and legal difficulties of Taiwanese lesbians before and after the death of their partners are that they have no legal status during the medical process and the medical laws and regulations do not extend to lesbian partners. Three types of disenfranchised grief are found among the lesbians who lost their partners, which are disenfranchised grief of loss without acknowledgment or support, disenfranchised grief of unimportant relationships, and inability to cope with grief. At the meantime, the research found that Taiwanese lesbians who lost their partners are often neglected from the funeral rituals and disenfranchised of the opportunity of cultural healing.