已婚年輕女性在性關係中的情慾協商與實作

Young Women's Negotiation and Practice of Sexuality in Marital Relationship

本研究採女性主義觀點，運用敘說探究，探究四位年輕已婚女性在婚姻關係中的性協商與實作。本研究發現，參與者在婚姻關係內的情慾，雖仍置落於男性中心所定義、且以生育為主的性操演條件中，然在敘說性協商經驗過程中，她們逐漸理解過往性別學習對自身情慾帶來的影響，察覺身體疏離和情慾語言缺乏的源頭，重新肯認女人情慾，進而開始卸下道德框限，重新認識自己。「性」的意義與決定權，不再單純僅由男性伴侶主導，她們或運用自身具備的情慾資源成為性協商利器，或跳脫受害者位置，練習將真實的身體感受及情慾需求說出口。如此從被動噤聲到決定主動出擊的歷程，她們看見性行為不再是展現情慾的唯一方式，情慾也能依身體和情感的不同需求，而有多樣化的追尋行動與實作形式，並重新認識情慾作為一種力量及「女人以一種主動積極方式存在」的真正意義。

The purpose of this study was to explore the four married young women's sexual negotiation and practice in their marital relationship, from the feminist's perspective with the narrative research method. The study revealed that even though the sexuality of the participants was still bound by the definition of male-centered values, mainly in reproductive function, they began to realize through the process of sexual negotiation experience: the influence of gender learning in the past on their sexuality; increased awareness of the sources of body alienation and lack of erotic language; a reaffirmation of her sexuality; and, further, an unloading of moral norms in order to reacquaint themselves. The meaning of sexuality and the right to make decision were no longer dominated by male partners. The women either exercised the erotic resources they possessed as a power in sexual negotiation or rejected becoming or continuing to be the victim. They tried to speak to the true feelings of their body and their need for erotic desires. In the process of evolving from silent passivity to initiative decision, these women regarded sexual behavior as not the only way to practice sexuality. Sexuality could be fulfilled in diverse searching actions and forms in accordance with the needs of their body and feelings. They also realized sexuality as a power to realize the true meaning of “women's existence in an active and positive way”.