基督徒同志教師生命衝突與轉化之敘說研究

The Narrative Research on the Life Conflict and Transformation of a Christian Gay Teacher

本文旨在了解基督徒同志教師生命衝突與轉化經驗。本研究透過一位研究參與者，進行五次，每次2-3小時之深度質性訪談，以敘說研究中「類別-內容」進行分析，研究結果基督徒同志教師生命衝突與轉化可分為五大面向：一、自我認同之衝突與轉化；二、親密與家庭關係之衝突與轉化；三、同志身份與基督教信仰之衝突與轉化；四、同志身份與教師角色衝突與轉化；五、生命價值瓦解與衝突與轉化。研究討論基督徒同志教師在生命各層面靈性、自我、家庭及工作皆產生衝突，較一般同志面臨更多挑戰，然在衝突中也益見其生命轉化力量之韌性。面對此族群，社會各層面更應放下「基督徒」、「同志」、「教師」等框架，回歸生命本質尊重、平等，提供友善接納之空間。最後，提出研究限制，對未來研究、助人工作者及社會各層面提出相關建議。

The purpose of this paper is to understand the life conflict and transformation of a Christian gay teacher. Through interviewing a participant, this study conducts for five times, each time 2-3 hours, the qualitative in-depth interviews. The study analyzes “category-content” in narrative study. Results can be divided into six parts:1. Identify conflict and transformation ； 2. Partner and family conflict and transformation；3. Gay and Christian conflict and transformation；4. Gay and teacher conflict and transformation；5. Life value conflict and transformation. The results reveal that the conflict of a Christian gay teacher is in every level of life. Christian gay teachers live a more difficult life than non-Christian gays. Facing these teachers, the society should renounce the” Christian”, “gay,” or “teacher” frames. The society should show them respect and treat them as equals. Finally, this study offers suggestions for future researches, professional helpers and difference levels of the society.